akumumasochist

Rape. Such a scary word, isn’t it? But once you experience it, It becomes even scarier. You all have heard how it happens in the movies. A guy and a girl meet at a party, They are both drunk, They go upstairs, The girl doesn’t want it, The guy doesn’t care. I'm not saying this doesn’t happen, Because it does But not as often as a boyfriend or a close guy friend raping you. They will draw you in. Start kissing you cheek, Start kissing your neck, Making you feel the best about yourself that you ever have. Then he gets you alone. He makes you feel like you want to. Makes you feel you have to. Cause “t

Tearing tendons, ripping flesh Teeth sink lower in my chest Rough hands graze my cheek Gag my mouth so I can't speak Hold me down to have your way As you break my soul again today

You said it would not hurt, as you advanced; Yet nothing but pain was inflicted, your Secretive smirk left me lost in a trance, I was young and vulnerable, unsure. You told me to trust you, though I did not Your words sliced through my soul; you took control Of my mind, you left me with not one shot To sew back together this gaping hole. You took from me, my pride, my innocence So you could receive what I did not want To give you; You struck, as though with vengeance, Though I had not wronged you; I fear you'll haunt My dreams forever, release from my mind Never, you poisoned this victim; left blind.

Hey, I remember this place. And, the tears. Tha fell down from my face. It's really very unusual how I continue to live. So long. Save me. And, in the dress you wore for me on our wedding night. (Chorus) You pushed me down. Into the ground. And, all I needed to hear. Was one word. One word! You make me drink the pain away. You make me bear the brunt of the blame. And, now that I think about it. [Think about it!] Sorry, is all it ever takes. "I love you"s were always fake. And, now, now I... Hate you. I hate you so, I hate you so. I hate everything about you. You pushed me down. Into the ground. And, all I needed to he

The ceiling never really was this bright at night.  I guess I had to ponder on everything that'd ever happened in my life as I waited for sleep to claim me.  It kind of annoys me that I can't seem to force myself into sleep.  Everyone else just goes into slumber, and I have to wait for hours to pass. I begin to sing the lyrics to myself again.  The same songs.  I write one everyday.  It's the only thing that keeps me happy.  I'd probably have started down the path to self-destruction if I weren't such a coward.  I make myself sick... I make myself cry as I sing my favorite lyrics to myself.  I can't remember the entirety of them, but I alwa

The rain falls. And, the pain calls. Out to me, the lonely vassal. Of the goddess of the dawn. I am her pawn. I am her confidant. As my stride remains gaunt. I remember every solemn tear that broke the surface. Of the lake of paradise. As the rain falls. And, disrupts any sense of peace. I had left beside my misstress' side. And, now I will bide my time. Until she opens the cage. And, then, I will show you my rage. Until the tragedy of my life. Has broken the surface of the lake. And, takes me to paradise, far too late.

Standing here again. It makes me wonder... You make me. Happy. Sober. Love is not over. Sappy. Broken. And, I feel you in the end. (Chorus) Because, you make me. Do crazy. Things, that won't go away. You make me. Do crazy. Things, so I'll just stay. You make me. Do crazy. Things that keep me near you. And, I ponder on the things I heard. Oh, well, guess I broke a rule again. Because, you make me. Do crazy. Things, that won't go away. You make me. Do crazy. Things, so I'll just stay. You make me. Do crazy. Things that keep me near you... Because, you make me. Do crazy. Things, that won't go away. You make me.